i'm kinda disappointed, cause i think that i didn't do good enough for my japanese test. i bet like 234857287 other people out there scored higher than me. now it's like i'm pushed to the middle, or even below average of the class, when i used to be one of the top in the previous years. like, i can't even get in and selected into the local immersion programme can. they used to pick the more able and better ones, those who can handle it, and i didn't get selected this year. last year was a refreshing experience, but somehow not getting selected this year has rang the alarm bell that i'm way too slack, and i really gotta work harder. i just slack and don't pay any attention at all during lessons, don't hand up my work on time and stuff. i was never like that. i used to study japanese and put my 200% effort into it, and did well not because of teachers or for my parents, but because i really liked the subject and had a passion for it. one by one, by passions dies and prove me wrong. i really wanna do well badly. like, i really wanna excel. if i'm gonna study that subject, ima do it DAMN GOOD. (only applies to japanese, no other subjects ya)

whatever, right. okay daily stuff to bring up the mood.

friend A: you're exceptionally quiet today
me: hmm?
friend A: everything ok?
me: yeah, it's not like you don't know that i don't really talk in the mornings.
friend A: really you sure everything's okay? nothing wrong right.
me: uh, yeah.
friend A: but you're usually not so quiet.
me: i am always like that what. *mumbles* dammit.
friend A: oh.

me: *bored*
me: *doodles on paper*
me: *gives a HUGEEE yawn and thinks,* oh shit. ><"
maths teacher: charlene, can you tell me how do i continue the equation?
me: uh.. >.>;;

and with all the packing in the house, it seems that dad's mood isn't too fantastic everytime he packs. he has to find someone whom he can vent his frustration on.

me: *watching tv*
dad: WHY DIDN'T YOU FLUSH THE TOILET?!
me: huh what? i got flush what.
dad: YOU DIDN'T YOU USE FINISH THE TOILET NEVER FLUSH.
me: i did i swear i flushed the toilet!
dad: YOU DIDN'T FLUSH IT! GO FLUSH IT NOW!
me: WHAT?! I GOT FLUSH WHY SHOULD I GO FLUSH IT NOW?
dad: FLUSH! IT! NOW!
me: NOT HAPPY IS IT? BAD MOOD WANNA SHOUT AT ME IS IT?
dad: I SAID FLUSH IT!
me: *returns to watching tv*
dad: BLOODY IDIOT!!!
me: *mumbles* fuckyou.
dad: BLOODY SHITTTT!!!

and it gets so interesting at my house (:

{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT
& somedays on mute mode

A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D

Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good. With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings. Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality. Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life. Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.

Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.

♥REITA,
just because.

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